I feel quite a failure as a daugther sometimes.
There's so much things about my father that i dont even seem to know about.
Millions of opportunities to chat just slip by as i go on with my oh-so-hectic life.
Anyway the times when i have a good conversation always end up with my trying to bring my point across and getting all worked up.
The saddest thing is that I learn more about him through my CE class in church which he conducts.
Today during the class, he shared how he felt God's presence during one seminar, which happened not too long ago. Why didn't he share it with me at home?
He also shared about his childhood. What he went through when he was young as a small kid.
It's not that he didn tell me anything about him or that i have a bad relationship with him, cause we're pretty fine.
But i feel that there's so much about him that i don't know. And i want to know cuz i could learn so much from him still.
I don't know about the sons and daugther's out there. But i feel that the older we get, we seem to think we know a lot and what our parents say don't carry as much weight as they do before.
I guess why i'm feeling this way is also because my dad and sis are leaving for canada soon. Absence makes the heart grow fonder is very apt in this case. Not that they have already left but i am thinking in the future sense when they have already left. Kk i'm just being technical here but you get the drift.
Maybe from now on i'll learn to treasure those opportunities more.
, Love Ashley Sunday, May 18, 2008
